Hello hello! I’m sitting here in our living room on a Tuesday afternoon while the kids play. CJ is laying on the rug chewing on his little teething ring and K is crawling around the playpen being his usual goofy self. My Monday writing routine kind of went out the window but that’s ok… here we are!
This morning I was taking the boys for a walk and it dawned on me that I have been thinking about motherhood all wrong. Lately I have been viewing it as an ocean in which I am fighting to stay afloat while getting pulled under by waves and having salt water go up my nose. An image literally popped into my mind of me in this vast, beautiful ocean but instead of enjoying it, I’m thinking to myself, “Ugh. I thought this was going to be a fun day at the beach, but instead I am out here nearly drowning in the water.”
Then I thought to myself- what if I learned to surf? The waves are going to come either way, but I get to choose whether I try to pop up and ride them to shore or if I passively let myself be dragged down by them. Surfing is hard, but once you get the hang of it, it can be super fun and rewarding. It becomes a way for you to “go with the flow” and ride the waves instead of allowing them to dominate you.
The “ocean” of motherhood can feel unrelenting at times- crying babies, nonstop nursing, nighttime wakeups, and the sheer mental load of keeping other humans alive can take its toll. However, I can decide to learn to surf in this ocean and turn the chaos into something beautiful. Practically, that can look like a lot of different things for me: thanking God for my children when I am tempted to complain about them, letting myself experience difficult emotions instead of stuffing them down, intentionally seeking out fun things to do with my family (or by myself, if I can swing it), and continually renewing my mind (Romans 12:2!) to maintain perspective.
I am learning more and more how much motherhood requires the willingness to be flexible, the humility to own your mistakes, and the grace to wake up and try again with each new day. We can do this! To all my mama friends… you are amazing, and you are doing a great job.